whoa? craziness!

so they've started to get us to plan and choose our courses for next year, and to help us with this, we've received four-year planner-thingies. i did one of these numbers where you stop thinking by starting to think, and i totally got buried in "what can i take next year, hmm...should i take it junior year instead? " yadda, yadda, yadda. and suddenly i realized: i am planning ahead! this, ladies and gentlemen, is the very definition of "uncharacteristic". i think about the future, of course, but i never sit down and plan anything past next week!
and i wonder (i can already hear you: ""uh-oh, that's never a good thing.") : is this because i've never been able to plan for myself, is it because i was naver made to, or is it because i simply never did?
i see myself changing, growing, as i do this, and i wonder if i like it.