in need of redemption...?

so i'm crying on that last night with nate. i said somewhere [after getting a tissue and seeing in the mirror that i looked like wednesday adams with red hair and mild acne] "i guess i'm not very pretty right now."
nate leanded forward, kissed me, and said that i always looked pretty. hearing that felt good, i won't lie. the part that felt bad, and still feels somewhat like a knife in my spine is that when i said that, [about not being pretty] i knew that he would respond with something along the lines of always being pretty. i knew it; i didn't need to say it and find out.
now, i'm split in two about this: part of me is elated that i can trust him that much, and the other part of me is beyond disgusted with myself. i don't know, i guess i just feel like i...used him? someone told me that[upon my asking if that made me a bad person] if i did that sort of thing all the time, and in situations that weren't as important as this, then yes, it would make me a bad person. but in this, they said that it made me human. it's perfectly human to want attention.
i agree with that last bit, but the other thing that bothers me is this: i don't normally--scratch that i almost NEVER do something like this. but, the one time i do, i'm "human". what was i before? was i trying to be better than human? am i still?